Sunday, May 19, 2013

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3/30/02




The day was gloomy today, and there was no real sign of the sun. The rain was cold and the house smelled of mildew. I hate these days-days of loss, days of sadness. Even the trees sit unhappy looking all around; their branches glaring with unseen eyeballs,. The reach out and beg. Seeing this, I tried to stay inside, sheltered and warm.



The dogs, a black lab and cream siberian/lab mut whined off and on during the day. They seemed very uncomfortable in the icey chill of March. The weather-it is so unpredictable, much like we humans are. It is cold, unrelenting it is and lonely.



4/2/02



I think of things on these days that are simple. The simple way Damian(my beautiful son) reacts when he finds a long green stringy thing in his chocolate pie. YUCK! He exclaims and shakes himself in a totally grimacing expression.



His face is just bursting with expression when he tells mommy what he did when he was a baby, as if he can remember that. Today he has decided to eat his chocolate pie with his baby spoon. What will he come up with next on his endless journey of discovery. This is art and should never be taken for granted. Simple, silly and precious.



4/3/02



It is crazy how a person feels like they can never do the right thing. Their feelings are spawned from the sudden urgency to pursue a spiteful actions. when you feel that revenge will somehow make you feel better. It is sadly the wrong approach. Revenge harbors sadness. INsanity will surely follow bitterness. Oh insanity in its unforgiving twisted reasoning.



-The horse rides forward quickly, urgently. As he approaches his destination, he stops just short. Abruptly stilled and frightened of the lightning bolt striking the ground before him. Panic seizes the animal.

I awake from this nightmare and I scream. I am holding onto one of Georges books and Venum is watching from around the corner.

But I don't care and I smile...because mad people smile lots....especially when there is more than one inside. :)

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